MUSIC: The Hidden Cameras - Music is my Boyfriend
Dum de dum! It's been a while. So I'll start with the 23rd.
The 23rd: OMG. On the 23rd of December, every year my family indulges in something we stay away from ALL YEAR. Fast food! We're all big fast-food haters here, but Peter's Drive-In shouldn't even count. It's just too damn good! So we get burgers, milkshakes, onion rings and the whole shebang. It was really awesome, but it appears that my stomach has shrunk over the last two weeks or something, because when Ryan and I cheated and went to Peter's after exams, I was able to eat a whole double burger and so many onion rings and a huge shake. But when I went with my family, it was mega lame, because I was ready to eat like TWO DOUBLE BURGERS AND FRIES AND ONION RINGS AND A MILLION MILKSHAKES. But i finished half of a single burger and was all OMG IM SO FULL.. Drool.. so I kept eating, and after like a handful of fries and onion rings, and like, half of a milkshake, I felt quite sick and VERY DISAPPOINTED.
Christmas Eve: Mike had an extra ticket to the 'Christmas Carol' again this year. And I had extra time. So I went to see it done by Theatre Calgary, and I enjoyed it even more than last year. That Scrooge just gets better with age. I got home and my parents gave me bookcases for Christmas, and I installed them in my room, and was very happy.
Christmas: Christmas was wicked. We went to my aunt and uncle's house, and ate lots of REALLY good turkey, and played Monopoly and watched Talladega Nights. It was REALLY nice to see my cousins again, because they're pretty awsome. I got a whole lot of money for Christmas, which is good. Now I have more money than I know what to do with, and the added security of not starving to death (because I actually only spend like one night at home a week). I also got new pj pants (a total necessity!), a pretty necklace from my pretty boyfriend, a Chanel necklace from my mom (omgrealfromSaks!), a new hoodie (JUST LIKE MY TWO LAST HOODIES, BUT SMALLER AND BROWNER!), some nice smelling bath things, 3 scarves and a drawer full of chocolate. Everyone threw in some chocolate into their gift, and now I have a drawer full of chocolate. Which is kind of bad, because I really don't like chocolate. But I've given most of it away, so that just leaves me with some nice trail mix and some Real Fruit Gummies. And Tic Tacs, and a Toblerone, and gum, and Callebaut... gak. I like Toblerones though. I absoluetely pigged out at my aunt and uncles house. The last week has been like a massive pig out week, and I feel really sick for overeating. But overeating is my favorite thing to do! Yay!
Boxing Day: Ryan and I went Boxing day shopping! He wanted to exchange his shiny new 4GB IPod for an 8GB one, and buy a Nintendo GameBoy DS for when class gets boring (AND I CAN EVEN BORROW IT ON M/W/F BECAUSE HE ONLY HAS CLASS ON T/T!), but sadly, BestBuy is only taking returns from the 28th onwards. Which makes sense, I guess. We decided to go to Southcentre for EB Games and Aritzia! I bought two pairs of jeans on sale (and they're mega sexy) and two shirts. I'm pretty happy with that desision. Hurr. Then we ate some sushi and bbq at Palatal, and then we rented the fourth season of Futurama, INCLUDING THE EPISODE WHERE KIF GETS PREGNANT (which is an episode we've been hunting for for a while!) It was sweet.
Today: THE DAY IS YOUNG, MY FRIENDS!
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Saturday, December 16, 2006
< lennon 3
MUSIC: John Lennon - Woman is the Nigger of the World
Lex is going to England for a while, so a bunch of us went for dinner, drinking and dancing. It was pretty fun, but I'm totally going to miss Lex for the next 6 months. It was so good to see everyone again. And it was also very good to party and relax after all of my exams were over! I have my results for French 209 back, and I didn't do super, but I did alright. Which is VERY GOOD, considering how poorly I've been doing in that class (I'm a huge slacker, though, and I deserve a far worse mark than that). So, I had a long island iced tea and caught up with everyone who I haven't seen for too long. It was very nice. After the dinner, a bunch of us went to Don Quixote's Salsa Bar for some dancing, but I didn't stay for long. Ryan was pretty sleepy, and I had pretty bad cramps. So we went home and watched "Tenacious D in THE PICK OF DESTINY" on his computer, which kicked ass. Everyone should seriously see it. I thought I'd HATE it, but what can I say? Jack Black is just so goddamn endearing. And it was very silly and lovely. I adore Jack Black. And oh-my-god-best-celebrity-cameo-EVER TIM ROBBINS. I adore him, and how he's seemingly become a member of the Frat Pack or something. Today was lazy. I slept until 1, and had Peter's Drive-In for lunch. I've been so goddamn healthy this past year, and it was REALLY nice to drink a big, thick, sloppy milkshake, eat some greasy, greasy onion rings and a big fat double burger. AND FROM PETER'S. AHHHH I LOVE LIVE! Then I visited my grandmother, which was nice because I love her and I haven't seen her since like, June. And then I watched "Mean Girls." And now I am blogging. Blog! Blog! Blog!
Thursday, December 14, 2006
silly silly girl.
MUSIC: The Yeah Yeah Yeahs - MA-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-APS
So, since I last posted, I indeed got that haircut. It's not bad. I reaaaaaally, really really didn't like it at first. My hairdresser just kind of cut my bangs. Not for a reason, of course. I just looked at myself after my haircut and was like "BANGS. OH." I was personally trying to get over the bangs thing. I think bangs can look wonderful! Joelle's bangs are the hottest bangs ever. Cat Power has very nice bangs. But in recent time, I had decided against bangs because I have an incredibly square face. And when you're face is all ANGULAR, it's nice to have sideswept bangs, because the bangs just make the angles look more ANGULAR, and the face look shorter. Now my face is short and ANGULAR. It's the same reason I hated Dr. Cameron's bangs on House. I was all "Oh no! You pretty girl, you! you were so pretty! And now you have bangs..." But the week after that, I decided her bangs looked lovely. So maybe, just like Cameron and her angular face/bangs combo, I will get used to *my* bangs.
Ew. I can't believe I just wrote that much about my physical appearance. Namely, my bangs. Forgive my vanity, everyone.
Mm... Anthropology final today. Anth isn't bad though. I'm REALLY looking forward to the Poli Sci study session with Betty afterwords. I need to cram like I've never crammed before. It's super rough having 5 exams in a week. Mostly because they're all in the same two days! Except this one. Yuck.
Sooooooo excited for finals to be over. You wouldn't even believe.
Hah! Story: My brain pooped out around 8:30 last night. I'd been studying since about noon, and after that much time, my brain just died! I watched the Simpsons for a while, and then I talked on MSN with Nigel and Alison (who I'd been talking to all day anyways :D). Nigel was drunk, so I was trying to convince rich, drunk Nigel to buy me things over the internet. AND THEN I REALIZED THERE WAS A NUTTY INTERNET SALE. And something that I've wanted for like TWO YEARS was only $15.50 CDN!!!!!!!!! So, I bothered my father (who was playing 'Gears of War' anyways, so it's not like I was disturbing him THAT much) for like another hour, because I do not have a credit card. Eventually his attitude was all "FINE. MERRY CHRISTMAS." But I'm simply thrilled because THIS: http://www.threadless.com/product/383/The_Communist_Party will soon be mine! I realize that just about everyone has one at this point, but I'm psyched. My brother and I were going to be THE COOLEST and each buy one and be all matching in EVERY family photo from now until death, but they didn't have his size :( YES!!!! I'm so excited!
THIS HAS BEEN THE MOST SUPERFICIAL THING I HAVE EVER POSTED ON ANY OF MY BLOGS AT ANYTIME EVER. Ukk.
So, since I last posted, I indeed got that haircut. It's not bad. I reaaaaaally, really really didn't like it at first. My hairdresser just kind of cut my bangs. Not for a reason, of course. I just looked at myself after my haircut and was like "BANGS. OH." I was personally trying to get over the bangs thing. I think bangs can look wonderful! Joelle's bangs are the hottest bangs ever. Cat Power has very nice bangs. But in recent time, I had decided against bangs because I have an incredibly square face. And when you're face is all ANGULAR, it's nice to have sideswept bangs, because the bangs just make the angles look more ANGULAR, and the face look shorter. Now my face is short and ANGULAR. It's the same reason I hated Dr. Cameron's bangs on House. I was all "Oh no! You pretty girl, you! you were so pretty! And now you have bangs..." But the week after that, I decided her bangs looked lovely. So maybe, just like Cameron and her angular face/bangs combo, I will get used to *my* bangs.
Ew. I can't believe I just wrote that much about my physical appearance. Namely, my bangs. Forgive my vanity, everyone.
Mm... Anthropology final today. Anth isn't bad though. I'm REALLY looking forward to the Poli Sci study session with Betty afterwords. I need to cram like I've never crammed before. It's super rough having 5 exams in a week. Mostly because they're all in the same two days! Except this one. Yuck.
Sooooooo excited for finals to be over. You wouldn't even believe.
Hah! Story: My brain pooped out around 8:30 last night. I'd been studying since about noon, and after that much time, my brain just died! I watched the Simpsons for a while, and then I talked on MSN with Nigel and Alison (who I'd been talking to all day anyways :D). Nigel was drunk, so I was trying to convince rich, drunk Nigel to buy me things over the internet. AND THEN I REALIZED THERE WAS A NUTTY INTERNET SALE. And something that I've wanted for like TWO YEARS was only $15.50 CDN!!!!!!!!! So, I bothered my father (who was playing 'Gears of War' anyways, so it's not like I was disturbing him THAT much) for like another hour, because I do not have a credit card. Eventually his attitude was all "FINE. MERRY CHRISTMAS." But I'm simply thrilled because THIS: http://www.threadless.com/product/383/The_Communist_Party will soon be mine! I realize that just about everyone has one at this point, but I'm psyched. My brother and I were going to be THE COOLEST and each buy one and be all matching in EVERY family photo from now until death, but they didn't have his size :( YES!!!! I'm so excited!
THIS HAS BEEN THE MOST SUPERFICIAL THING I HAVE EVER POSTED ON ANY OF MY BLOGS AT ANYTIME EVER. Ukk.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
GAHHHHH LOSING IT
MUSIC: Elliot Smith - Junk Bond Trader
I thought I'd share my idiocy:
if i could do just one near perfect thing i'd be happy. <3 says:
ew i blew my french oral exam
Pow-Pow!!!!! says:
that was also hot
So, apparently, I'm not very eloquent today.
I thought I'd share my idiocy:
if i could do just one near perfect thing i'd be happy. <3 says:
ew i blew my french oral exam
Pow-Pow!!!!! says:
that was also hot
So, apparently, I'm not very eloquent today.
AHAHA FINALS ARE AWESOME
Music: Leonard Cohen: Lover, Lover, Lover
OKAY. Why do I still read Questionable Content? STUPID,STUPID Mr. Jaques is DESTROYING HIS ART. It was so good. So damn, deliciously good. I liked it better when there was less Dora, more Pint-Sized, more akward Marten, more of Steve and Ellen, and less VespAvenger. I prefered it quite a bit when Marten was SOMEWHAT akward, not this confident idiot who's getting lots of sex. However, I do like Penelope. She could truly go far. But all of these LOOK AT US WE'RE SARCASTIC jokes are so bad. The characters used to be sarcastic about stuff, not about being sarcastic! GAHH. I keep reading it in hopes that it'll get better, but I know in my heart I must move on.
I really liked 'Hedwig and the Angry Inch'. It was a very good movie, quite possibly the best I've seen in years. Go see it. It's one of those musicals that hasn't been ruined for me by being crazily overplayed and obsessed over in Summerstock. I mean, I did have fun in Summerstock for the most part, and there wasn't much I didn't like... but I REALLY didn't like listening to EVERYONE singing ALL of the songs from my favorite musicals ALL THE TIME. Fortunately, though, I still have The Producers, Hairspray, Rocky Horror, Avenue Q and now, Hedwig and the Angry Inch. Ps. The rights to the show have recently became available! Who wants to put on Hedwig and the Angry Inch with me? I call Yitzhak!!!!!!
Hahaha. HAHAHAHA. Finals have put me in a super deranged mood. I did pretty shitty on my French Oral, but I have stopped caring about that grade. But I FREAKED OUT. I like SNAPPED when my Sociology TA asked me for my name and student ID number after the exam. I gave him my info, but then I like FREAKED. I was all OHSHIT WHY DOES HE WANT MY NAME AN ID?? OH NO OH NO WHAT IF HE THOUGHT I WAS CHEATING AND IS GOING TO KICK ME OUT OF UNIVERSITY FOREEEVERRRR??? So I had a wonderful panic attack, and emailed my TA and was all OMG OMG OMG WHY DID YOU ASK ME FOR THAT OMG OMG OMG? Ane he emailed me back and said it was because he thought I was an outstanding student in my tutorials and wanted to make sure my mark reflected that. HA HA. I HATE FINALS. THEY MAKE ME WEIRD. AND I'M PMSING. HA HA! WOW THIS IS THE BEST WEEK EVER!
I'm getting a haircut. Nothing drastic though. Just some snippy snip off the bottom, and some layers for a layered effect. :)
OKAY. Why do I still read Questionable Content? STUPID,STUPID Mr. Jaques is DESTROYING HIS ART. It was so good. So damn, deliciously good. I liked it better when there was less Dora, more Pint-Sized, more akward Marten, more of Steve and Ellen, and less VespAvenger. I prefered it quite a bit when Marten was SOMEWHAT akward, not this confident idiot who's getting lots of sex. However, I do like Penelope. She could truly go far. But all of these LOOK AT US WE'RE SARCASTIC jokes are so bad. The characters used to be sarcastic about stuff, not about being sarcastic! GAHH. I keep reading it in hopes that it'll get better, but I know in my heart I must move on.
I really liked 'Hedwig and the Angry Inch'. It was a very good movie, quite possibly the best I've seen in years. Go see it. It's one of those musicals that hasn't been ruined for me by being crazily overplayed and obsessed over in Summerstock. I mean, I did have fun in Summerstock for the most part, and there wasn't much I didn't like... but I REALLY didn't like listening to EVERYONE singing ALL of the songs from my favorite musicals ALL THE TIME. Fortunately, though, I still have The Producers, Hairspray, Rocky Horror, Avenue Q and now, Hedwig and the Angry Inch. Ps. The rights to the show have recently became available! Who wants to put on Hedwig and the Angry Inch with me? I call Yitzhak!!!!!!
Hahaha. HAHAHAHA. Finals have put me in a super deranged mood. I did pretty shitty on my French Oral, but I have stopped caring about that grade. But I FREAKED OUT. I like SNAPPED when my Sociology TA asked me for my name and student ID number after the exam. I gave him my info, but then I like FREAKED. I was all OHSHIT WHY DOES HE WANT MY NAME AN ID?? OH NO OH NO WHAT IF HE THOUGHT I WAS CHEATING AND IS GOING TO KICK ME OUT OF UNIVERSITY FOREEEVERRRR??? So I had a wonderful panic attack, and emailed my TA and was all OMG OMG OMG WHY DID YOU ASK ME FOR THAT OMG OMG OMG? Ane he emailed me back and said it was because he thought I was an outstanding student in my tutorials and wanted to make sure my mark reflected that. HA HA. I HATE FINALS. THEY MAKE ME WEIRD. AND I'M PMSING. HA HA! WOW THIS IS THE BEST WEEK EVER!
I'm getting a haircut. Nothing drastic though. Just some snippy snip off the bottom, and some layers for a layered effect. :)
Sunday, December 10, 2006
sleigh bells
MUSIC: The Decemberists - I Was Meant for the Stage
Good news, everybody! I don't have to work on the 15th! This means I can go out with friends, and not drop out of French because my exam is late! Yaaay!
I really like Futurama. And I ate too much pizza tonight. It was really good pizza too. There's nothing like watching television and eating pizza! Junk food for the mind AND the body!
My really cute boyfriend is sleeping on my bed behind me right now. He's even cuddling with my teddy bear. It's really cute. I think he's eaten too much pizza.
I really hope I do well on my finals tommorow!! I definetely haven't studied as much as I should have... I think I'll do okay, though. From my pre-quiz, I think I'll do okay on Sociology, but I'm a little bit scared for my French Oral. Oh dear. I think I might do okay though, I just need more confidence!!! Everyone send me good luck vibes for my finals pleaaase!! :D
Good news, everybody! I don't have to work on the 15th! This means I can go out with friends, and not drop out of French because my exam is late! Yaaay!
I really like Futurama. And I ate too much pizza tonight. It was really good pizza too. There's nothing like watching television and eating pizza! Junk food for the mind AND the body!
My really cute boyfriend is sleeping on my bed behind me right now. He's even cuddling with my teddy bear. It's really cute. I think he's eaten too much pizza.
I really hope I do well on my finals tommorow!! I definetely haven't studied as much as I should have... I think I'll do okay, though. From my pre-quiz, I think I'll do okay on Sociology, but I'm a little bit scared for my French Oral. Oh dear. I think I might do okay though, I just need more confidence!!! Everyone send me good luck vibes for my finals pleaaase!! :D
Saturday, December 9, 2006
every day is like sundaaaaaaaay
MUSIC: Ani Difranco - Both Hands
I'm quite miserable. I'm probably going to have to work on the 15th, because Scott has a Christmas party, and that's a really big thing, because he just started a new job, and needs to suck up and mingle and whatnot. Trouble is, that's the day my midterms are over, and the day that I was going to celebrate, and the day that I was going to say goodbye to a good friend of mine. Lex is going to England for Christmas, and if she likes it, and likes living with her mom, she's going to live there for six months or so. I'm just upset because it's THE WORST POSSIBLE NIGHT. I mean, if it was on a night where I was just going to the bar with friends BUT NO ONE WAS LEAVING FOR ENGLAND, then that'd be cool. Or if work would be over at 10, so I could just go after I was at work, but it's going to be a late night. So, all I can do is cross my fingers. And they're crossed tightly.
I'm quite miserable. I'm probably going to have to work on the 15th, because Scott has a Christmas party, and that's a really big thing, because he just started a new job, and needs to suck up and mingle and whatnot. Trouble is, that's the day my midterms are over, and the day that I was going to celebrate, and the day that I was going to say goodbye to a good friend of mine. Lex is going to England for Christmas, and if she likes it, and likes living with her mom, she's going to live there for six months or so. I'm just upset because it's THE WORST POSSIBLE NIGHT. I mean, if it was on a night where I was just going to the bar with friends BUT NO ONE WAS LEAVING FOR ENGLAND, then that'd be cool. Or if work would be over at 10, so I could just go after I was at work, but it's going to be a late night. So, all I can do is cross my fingers. And they're crossed tightly.
oh GAWD
MUSIC: Belle and Sebastian - The Blues are Still Blue
December 8th is a very special day for me. Especially if it falls on a Monday. :(
OHSHIT. I have lots and lots of exams coming up, and they're all next week. I need to study study hard. I'm quite scared for exams. Oh dear.
December 8th is a very special day for me. Especially if it falls on a Monday. :(
OHSHIT. I have lots and lots of exams coming up, and they're all next week. I need to study study hard. I'm quite scared for exams. Oh dear.
Friday, December 8, 2006
HICK-A-DOO-LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
RYAN WAS HERE! I h4xz0rd plaulas blog lol... so...now i'll blog! ...2day ws sux. teher wuz leik tihs lvl 49 dark efl adn seh tired to cybrme nd i wuz ilek "WHOA BETCH" cuz i alrdy haz teh r0xz0rinzt grrl in teh WWW.... YEA YOU KNOW WHO YHOU ARHE BABY!!! YHOU STAND UHP AND REPRESENT!#%!@!!111oneoneon !!
...I love you bebbes. Sorry I tainted your wall with my filth. <3
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...I love you bebbes. Sorry I tainted your wall with my filth. <3
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Tuesday, December 5, 2006
paula is dripping from the nose
MUSIC: The Be Good Tanyas - Junkie Song
Akk. I'm mega sick. This is terrible! I definetely stayed home from school today which was kind of akk, because I missed getting an essay back! Oh dear! I'm kind of scared, because I talked to someone in my class who usually does pretty well on that kind of thing, and they definetely didn't do so well. :S Everyone send me super good luck vibes! I'm going to go study some Sociology now... and refill my humidifier...
Akk. I'm mega sick. This is terrible! I definetely stayed home from school today which was kind of akk, because I missed getting an essay back! Oh dear! I'm kind of scared, because I talked to someone in my class who usually does pretty well on that kind of thing, and they definetely didn't do so well. :S Everyone send me super good luck vibes! I'm going to go study some Sociology now... and refill my humidifier...
Monday, December 4, 2006
PAULA HAS A SHINY NEW BLOG
MUSIC: The Hidden Cameras - Steal All You Can Motherfucker
Okay, so.
Paula decided to get a BLOGGER account, because the only other person with a LiveJournal account is Nicole. And Paula reaaaaaally likes to blog. So let's see if she can manage 2 big fancy blogs.
This is a big, long introductory post. Feel free to skip it :)
Umm... All of my finals are condensed into next week. That really sucks. I have to study my butt off this week. LIKE SO I HAVE NO BUTT. And that's particularily lame because one of my ALL TIME FAVORITE BANDS is playing at the Grand tommorow night, and I can't go because I have to study. And tickets are totally availible, and I can totally afford it. LAME. And as a final kick to the teeth, I am sick beyond all recognition. It's almost 8:30 and I'm getting ready for bed. I am so ill, it's really terrible. I'm upset. And worried for finals. And sick. And upset. This SUCKS.
I'm also a loner, because I only know like 5 people at my university. *whine* It's like worse than going anywhere new, because in all locations EXCEPT Calgary, I have like 10 friends awaiting me with open arms. University is a super difficult adjustment. I'm having a hard time finding a way to spend my spare time, not that there's much of it. In between classes is okay, because I'm a huge gym-rat, but it's still kind of weird, because upon emerging from the gym, I don't know what to do. So, I kill an hour or an hour and a half at the gym, but then I still have two hours with nothing to do! From there it's pretty much just waiting around to find something else to do, or to run into someone to do something with. I know I should spend the time to study, and I usually do, but I kind of want my acidemic career to be a little bit more than just STUDY STUDY STUDY. University is supposed to be that amazing time where you work hard and party lots. I've just been working hard. It's quite hard to meet people. Damnit, I should have gone to ACAD. At least I'd ENJOY studying art.
Ooooooh... I'm super worried about getting my essay back.... :S
Okay, I've gotten all of my useless whining out of the way here. I hate ending things on a sour note, because I am a perky, positive girl. So, I whined and whined for my first two paragraphs, and now I have some positive paragraphs! On the plus side, the right side of my brain is absolutely thriving! I've seemingly become this wonderfully creative person in recent days. It's fanatastic. I've been teaching myself to play guitar, and it's being going really well. I've been quite excited about learning for a while, but I'm finally making progress, after 2 or 3 years of trying and trying. I really hope I can stay motivated, because while it's frustrating to learn an instrument by yourself, it can be really rewarding. I can sing and play at the same time! I'm so proud! My goal is to be able to play Open Mic Night at the House with Beth soon... We're going to try to set up a band again. Our last one didn't work out, but it's super awesome that she's still a motivated kid who wants to be in a band. :)
I'm quite proud of myself for starting up with my art again. It's really nice to be out of Westmount for that reason. I'm not saying I don't miss Westmount like crazy (which I do.... most of it... I don't miss Marek..... I mean, I do see him every day... but that's not why I don't miss him :P), because I really do miss Westmount, but I'm happy that I'm out of that artistic environment. I almost stopped drawing because of the immense negative feedback from one student. Everytime I would draw something, he would tell me how much I suck compared to him, or Nicole, or Rita, or Mr. Crooks, or anyone. And just little comments about how I wasn't and could never be a serious artist. There is a fine, fine line between an insult and a critique, but I promice you, it was extremely insulting. Positive people like Nicole and Rita would occasionally point out if I had fucked up on proportion or color or my backwards thumb guy (:D), but it would never be malicious. It really hurt when this person would say stuff like that, and I lost all passion for art, and stopped drawing. Nowadays, however, I have a new outlook. I've been drawing a lot more and I've become extremely proud about my art. It's really been improving, and I have no one to tell me I suck. Nicole still critiques my stuff, but it's HELPFUL critisism. It's nice to be able to draw for me and not have anyone be rude. I adore art and I would very much enjoy for it to contribute to my income someday, and I can't go a day without doing it now. So, I guess I'm just saying that I'm very thankful for the release of this negative force from my life.
I'd also like to say how much I appriciate my friends right now. They're all across the world right now, so that's a little bit hard, but whenever they come home, it's really nice to see them. I guess you never really appriciate things until they leave you, or just leave you temporarily! Last year was difficult, I had a lot of ups and downs with friends, but I thankfully emerged feeling fine because of the true friends that I do have. I think last year was particularily hard because I went through an extremely hard time with one of my best friends, who decided they didn't like me anymore. That person gave me no reason or anything, but it was extremely difficult watching one of my best friendships fall completly apart. It absolutely devestated me for about six months, and I just had the hardest time. It's so hard when you're used to seeing a person every day, having so many inside jokes, having so much fun together, having the best time of your life, and then it all falling apart for reasons you don't know, don't understand or can't figure out. It was extremely taxing to have that huge source of negativity in my life at a time where change was immenent, but I'm so fortunate I had other friends there for me. I didn't talk much about that issue, I mean, it bugged me beyond all recognition and I'm foolishly still trying to repair it, but I didn't feel worthless as a friend or a person after long. I had the wonderful influence of my awesome morning spare friends, my awesome English AP friends, my awesome Western IB friends, my awesome Summerstock friends,my AWEEEEESOOOOMEEEEEEE boyfriend, my awesome friend who was in Spain but now is not, and my awesome family. It goes such a long way to realise that just because one friendship doesn't work out, it doesn't mean that all friendships won't work out. And I've become more open to so many people who I never realised I could be so close with until grade 12. So many people have been so kind to me, and chances are, if you're reading this, I probably love you more than anything.
Okay, It's almost 9:00. This short post turned very quickly into a super long post. I'm sick. I should have gone to sleep an hour ago.
Okay, so.
Paula decided to get a BLOGGER account, because the only other person with a LiveJournal account is Nicole. And Paula reaaaaaally likes to blog. So let's see if she can manage 2 big fancy blogs.
This is a big, long introductory post. Feel free to skip it :)
Umm... All of my finals are condensed into next week. That really sucks. I have to study my butt off this week. LIKE SO I HAVE NO BUTT. And that's particularily lame because one of my ALL TIME FAVORITE BANDS is playing at the Grand tommorow night, and I can't go because I have to study. And tickets are totally availible, and I can totally afford it. LAME. And as a final kick to the teeth, I am sick beyond all recognition. It's almost 8:30 and I'm getting ready for bed. I am so ill, it's really terrible. I'm upset. And worried for finals. And sick. And upset. This SUCKS.
I'm also a loner, because I only know like 5 people at my university. *whine* It's like worse than going anywhere new, because in all locations EXCEPT Calgary, I have like 10 friends awaiting me with open arms. University is a super difficult adjustment. I'm having a hard time finding a way to spend my spare time, not that there's much of it. In between classes is okay, because I'm a huge gym-rat, but it's still kind of weird, because upon emerging from the gym, I don't know what to do. So, I kill an hour or an hour and a half at the gym, but then I still have two hours with nothing to do! From there it's pretty much just waiting around to find something else to do, or to run into someone to do something with. I know I should spend the time to study, and I usually do, but I kind of want my acidemic career to be a little bit more than just STUDY STUDY STUDY. University is supposed to be that amazing time where you work hard and party lots. I've just been working hard. It's quite hard to meet people. Damnit, I should have gone to ACAD. At least I'd ENJOY studying art.
Ooooooh... I'm super worried about getting my essay back.... :S
Okay, I've gotten all of my useless whining out of the way here. I hate ending things on a sour note, because I am a perky, positive girl. So, I whined and whined for my first two paragraphs, and now I have some positive paragraphs! On the plus side, the right side of my brain is absolutely thriving! I've seemingly become this wonderfully creative person in recent days. It's fanatastic. I've been teaching myself to play guitar, and it's being going really well. I've been quite excited about learning for a while, but I'm finally making progress, after 2 or 3 years of trying and trying. I really hope I can stay motivated, because while it's frustrating to learn an instrument by yourself, it can be really rewarding. I can sing and play at the same time! I'm so proud! My goal is to be able to play Open Mic Night at the House with Beth soon... We're going to try to set up a band again. Our last one didn't work out, but it's super awesome that she's still a motivated kid who wants to be in a band. :)
I'm quite proud of myself for starting up with my art again. It's really nice to be out of Westmount for that reason. I'm not saying I don't miss Westmount like crazy (which I do.... most of it... I don't miss Marek..... I mean, I do see him every day... but that's not why I don't miss him :P), because I really do miss Westmount, but I'm happy that I'm out of that artistic environment. I almost stopped drawing because of the immense negative feedback from one student. Everytime I would draw something, he would tell me how much I suck compared to him, or Nicole, or Rita, or Mr. Crooks, or anyone. And just little comments about how I wasn't and could never be a serious artist. There is a fine, fine line between an insult and a critique, but I promice you, it was extremely insulting. Positive people like Nicole and Rita would occasionally point out if I had fucked up on proportion or color or my backwards thumb guy (:D), but it would never be malicious. It really hurt when this person would say stuff like that, and I lost all passion for art, and stopped drawing. Nowadays, however, I have a new outlook. I've been drawing a lot more and I've become extremely proud about my art. It's really been improving, and I have no one to tell me I suck. Nicole still critiques my stuff, but it's HELPFUL critisism. It's nice to be able to draw for me and not have anyone be rude. I adore art and I would very much enjoy for it to contribute to my income someday, and I can't go a day without doing it now. So, I guess I'm just saying that I'm very thankful for the release of this negative force from my life.
I'd also like to say how much I appriciate my friends right now. They're all across the world right now, so that's a little bit hard, but whenever they come home, it's really nice to see them. I guess you never really appriciate things until they leave you, or just leave you temporarily! Last year was difficult, I had a lot of ups and downs with friends, but I thankfully emerged feeling fine because of the true friends that I do have. I think last year was particularily hard because I went through an extremely hard time with one of my best friends, who decided they didn't like me anymore. That person gave me no reason or anything, but it was extremely difficult watching one of my best friendships fall completly apart. It absolutely devestated me for about six months, and I just had the hardest time. It's so hard when you're used to seeing a person every day, having so many inside jokes, having so much fun together, having the best time of your life, and then it all falling apart for reasons you don't know, don't understand or can't figure out. It was extremely taxing to have that huge source of negativity in my life at a time where change was immenent, but I'm so fortunate I had other friends there for me. I didn't talk much about that issue, I mean, it bugged me beyond all recognition and I'm foolishly still trying to repair it, but I didn't feel worthless as a friend or a person after long. I had the wonderful influence of my awesome morning spare friends, my awesome English AP friends, my awesome Western IB friends, my awesome Summerstock friends,my AWEEEEESOOOOMEEEEEEE boyfriend, my awesome friend who was in Spain but now is not, and my awesome family. It goes such a long way to realise that just because one friendship doesn't work out, it doesn't mean that all friendships won't work out. And I've become more open to so many people who I never realised I could be so close with until grade 12. So many people have been so kind to me, and chances are, if you're reading this, I probably love you more than anything.
Okay, It's almost 9:00. This short post turned very quickly into a super long post. I'm sick. I should have gone to sleep an hour ago.
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